So much for a Happy Ending...

I started bleeding yesterday afternoon. I'm cramping really bad too. My mother says I shouldn't worry, and could still be carrying, but I feel like it's a lost cause. I'll never become pregnant again and carry again. Kenre is my miracle baby, and the doctors told me to love him best because he'll be my only one. I want my big family, though, and we cannot afford to adopt. My younger sister, Kier, is pregnant again too. This is her third child, all under 3 years old. How come I want one, and she doesn't want more, and yet I can't carry? Why is it that the world is so screwed up like that?